Why Do You Do This Music Thing?
Some people wonder why anyone would devote their lives to music. The percentage of individuals who “make it” seems to discourage anyone who loves music from trying. In my case, many individuals in my own family were against my pursuing of music, for in their eyes, a business degree would have been more advantageous (side note: my mom was always on my side, she raised me on her own and has always had my back). What is it about music that caused me to go against the advice of Forbes, members of my family and anyone else who was against this career path?
Music has always been my companion, as I am sure that such is the case for many people. It goes deeper than that for me however, as music was not only my companion but my source of sanity. Whenever I needed it, I would let rhythm and melody wash over me and calm my senses. Eventually I discovered that I needed to be involved with music, that I would never forgive myself if I at least didn’t try (this was around age 15). I found that I had an aptitude for music, as I had for many years played drums/percussion, and eventually I taught myself to play guitar after only a few lessons (a few years down the road being able to play works by Steve Vai and Joe Satriani). I developed a desire to compose, starting with pieces on my guitar and eventually writing for orchestra when I was 18 (without any lessons mind you). I had an insatiable desire for theory, for history, for cultural perspectives, all relating to music.
There was simply no other path that I could take; music was the beginning and the end of all of my pursuits. Have I fallen flat on my face in this career? Absolutely. I have failed, taken beatings, and been emotionally drained, cursing the very notes that bound me. At the end of the day, though, I could still pop in a Jimi Hendrix CD and feel love and hope. I suppose that is the most poignant statement in a way when it comes to my career, even when I hated music, I loved music. You will never be 100 percent happy in your life; you just have to find what makes it worth living. Even when I am mentally exhausted from all of the studying I do at my college, I know that I must pay my dues to have this career that I so desire.
I do not know where I will wind up after finishing music school. I could fall flat on my face, or I could win a Grammy, either way I know that music is where I belong. There is no question in my mind about this, and that is why no one could take this away from me. I encourage you to find this same passion that I have, it is never too late, and I wish you well in your pursuit of it.