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Music, it is what it is

If you really think about it, music is an odd form of expression. At the same time, when people experience it, they experience emotions that are really more physical sensations. The hair on the back of their neck stands up. Their heart rate either slows or speeds up. Maybe they feel like punching someone (though this is usually reserved for the music of Justin Bieberererererererzzzzzzzzz).

In spite of all these things, I’ll be honest, somedays I really don’t like studying music. Lately, I’ve been exhausted, bored, and just flat-out irritated with it. The scientific aspect of music (i.e. the breaking down of music into sociology, theory, anthropology, and etc.), can sometimes ruin the magic. Even as a composer, sometimes the lack of notes on a page can drive me insane. I think music can be best described sometimes as a siren, a temptor that sings the gracious melodies, only to then leave you stranded on jagged rocks. 

So what is the burn-out to do? Give up? Certainly not. Even if it sucks, you just have to say “it is what it is.” Music can hate you, love you, betray you, and worship you, but ultimately your experience with it varies day-to-day. Somehow, you just figure it out. Somehow you figure out how to push through its temper-tantrums and find the calm of the storm, only to then be knocked off your feet by the violent winds of the notes. 

At the end of all things, you still realize that music is your best friend, your lover, and your support system. Music, when life fails you, finds your ashes scattered among the surf, and figures out how to resurrect you. Why do I do this music thing day in and day out? It is what it is.

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6 responses

  1. You might be due a rest, Derek. I imagine you’re cramming a lot into life at present, JM.

    April 24, 2013 at 4:06 pm

    • yeah John I really do. Thankfully summer break is only 6 weeks away. Just have to hold on ’til then.

      April 24, 2013 at 5:47 pm

  2. I’ve been burn out lately, just can’t get my head cleared for a few days. I hear a killer song though, usually found by accident, and that gives it back to me, at least for a few minutes.

    April 24, 2013 at 10:37 pm

  3. Yeah, I hear ya.

    April 27, 2013 at 10:58 pm

  4. mikeslayen

    The least musical time in my life is when I was studying music in college…theory, composition, history, ear training, classical, jazz, competition, general education, life….oh yeah and hours of practicing guitar. But, I still pull stuff out of my college days and start working on it for the first time.

    Also, I still go through periods of not even playing for a week or two…its actually therapeutic. You’re right good days, bad days…it is what it is…but beats digging ditches any day!!!! Hang in there!

    April 29, 2013 at 4:35 pm

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